you abhor my smoking like a vacuum I nakedly long to be swept up by quiet around me. subtle silence? quickened pulse flit flit fluster glittery gilded luster lust Unquenching wrenching thirsted curse walking waken sands of rustling golden dust am i whole without you fitting mine? without you fitting my mind another just fate unkind

EXT. DAY-PARK FAITH sees MATT her last known Crush at a school BBQ
FAITH avoids eye contact, finds other things to do in slightly obvious but nice way, stays out of his way basically. MATT tracks her down in front of the pit bbq'ing.
MATT So I haven't seen you online FAITH Oh yeah I figured I was bothering you so I took you off my buddylist MATT Oh, you don't accept messages… FAITH …from people not on my buddy list MATT (SILENCE) FAITH You didn't seem all that interested in speaking to me actually MATT You're very interesting. FAITH Also everyone of your short sentences had a period.
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AIM CHAT: FAITH: hi there MATT: hi. FAITH How's it going? MATT good. FAITH do u think you wanna go to a museum with me on saturday? MATT "m is away"
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EXT. BACK AT THE BBQ – DAY
MATT What? FAITH I just tend to like people more open ended
Why don’t we call that lil interlude, LEARNING THAT PEOPLE HAVE DIFFERENT COMMUNICATION STYLES. Or perhaps, AIM IS NOT A STABLE FORM OF COMMUNICATION FOR THE INSECURE.

Crushes happened for me with both boys and girls. After some of the grossness of my first year at college, in spring of that year I met my first girlfriend. I had come out quickly at the beginning of the year, then I got a bit confused. It started on National Coming Out Day 1998. Candace Gingrich, Newt’s lil sister spoke in the quad and I walked by and took a sticker. I started listening to her speak on how people of Faith should be welcome in gay communities, just as gays should be welcome in people of faith communities. It hit me like a brick as I looked at Candace’s tan legs in hiking boots with pink socks. I was gay. Oh My God. I like chicks.