I feel so over.
Here I sit listening to Garbage’s “Special” for the millionth time.
How many times am I gonna walk in this circle. I’m am so insanely sick of that feeling, that feeling you get when you finally wake up and realize they’re not it. I mean goddamn is this sex and the city or what? Or rather the city and the celibate, since I’m not getting any, and probably never will.
Oh, I know shake your head! Go ahead with that “oh, you’ll find someone”.
I’m NOT just fishing for compliments …we’re all meant to be alone I say. Just because you have someone you think that makes you special, you think you can shake off my pain with the word, “eventually”? At least I’m honest, I listen to that nagging little voice that whispers how we were all meant to be alone. I accept when loneliness wraps it’s cold hard body begging me to stay. And am satisfied with knowing that you will feel my pain. ‘cause we all run out of love some time. You normal people will love and lose, and pretend that yes, it is better to love and lose. I’ll tell you this, I’m just as happy as you’ll ever be!
I’m just as sad! DO YOU HEAR ME!!!
I’ll act out every scenario without that other person in the room, I don’t need You…I need space.
I need more love.
I need more sex.
and always needing more is what it comes down to.
But when I’m with me, I realize there’s nothing else to need.
All I’ve got is what is right here in front of me…and you’ll realize it too.
We’re the same, even as I’m alone and you’re lonely. The only difference lies in the song. I sing my own. I don’t need a person to complete me
I don’t need you
I don’t need anyone!